I do not remember when the photo was taken, Christmas maybe. Now, it sits in my study on a bookshelf filled with the chef d’œuvres of missiology, sophisticated life accomplishments like Glasser’s Announcing the Kingdom and Bosch’s Transforming Mission. My mother gave it to me, the photo, when I went away to college. Pewter framed, pudgy fingers hold up a gift for the camera lens, a Rand McNally Junior Elf book. Baby teeth press gently into my lower lip turned upward in a smile. Roundish cheeks, I look to be about four years old. Black and white photography was in fashion, early 70s Berkeley street art. The kind you might see for sale on a Telegraph Avenue sidewalk table next to macramé plant holders and beaded jewelry. My hair, cut in a shaggy bowl, frames deep pool eyes that overwhelm the observer’s attention. I was learning to read, all my senses roused to an undiscovered world and to the God who created it all. Wonder and innocence pull you into that regard.
The Kingdom of God belongs to eyes such as these.
We had a tire swing then that hung from a lazy tree on the side of the house. My dad would sit in the tire and I in his arms, leaning against his solid chest. His day-old beard was rough against my cheek. He taught me promises that he couldn't make: I will never leave you. I will never forsake you, God has said.
“We can trust him,” Dad depended on these promises too. His greatest gift to me was to point beyond the strength of his own character to God’s Reign. The Kingdom of God belongs to eyes such as these.
I placed that photo on my missiology bookshelf the day I applied to Fuller’s PhD program in Intercultural Studies. I want to remember that the Kingdom of God is best perceived in wide-eyed wonder and in weakness. I want to remember child-like dependence on the God who has always kept his promise to me. I know that nothing can be added to the gift I received sitting in that tire swing. “For everything belongs to you…and you belong to Christ, and Christ belongs to God.” It is in this freedom that I take the risks of doctoral studies in missiology. Everything already belongs to me. The Kingdom of God belongs to eyes such as these.
This coming year, 2008, I will be preparing for Fuller's Intercultural Studies Qualifying Exam. The books I've listed below are the one's I've selected from the Reading List of Works Central to Missiology in five out of the twelve sub-disciplines: General Missiology, Theology of Mission, Mission History, Globalization, and Contemporary Western Culture. Although I am not expected to master these books before the exam, it is my personal goal to go beyond what is required. My aim is not so much to achieve a PhD degree as it is to become a fully qualified missiologist. The exam provides a useful goal to help me lay a broad and deep missiological foundation before I attack the specific research for my dissertation.
I have already written my dissertation proposal, titled: Migration, Metropolitan Paris and Mission. It was well received by Fuller's faculty who are encouraging me to take the PhD plunge. Though I'm tempted to post my proposal here, I think it's wise to protect my ideas a little while longer. I'll reveal them as necessary.
I will however post book reviews here as I work my way through the reading list for the qualifying exam. Right now, I am studying Charles Van Engen's two major influences: Arthur Glasser and Johannes Verkuyl. These names along with others like Bosch and Newbigin may not mean anything to you now, but they will if you keep reading this blog :-) Don't worry, I'll keep blogging about everyday life too!
Soooo.... Just in time, I've decided what I want to be when I grow up: a missiologist. Even as I state this vocational goal, let me qualify it with these oft quoted words by J Verkuyl:
Missiology may never become a substitute for action and participation. God calls for participants and volunteers in his mission. In part, missiology's goal is to become a "service station" along the way. If study does not lead to participation, whether at home or abroad, missiology has lost her humble calling. (Verkuyl 1978:6)
For those of you who pray, I would appreciate it very much if you would pray for me as I pursue this "humble calling." Pray that I would have Kingdom eyes.
Did I mention that it's almost my 40th birthday? ;-)